Hmm... I don't really know where the urge to post in here came from, but I thought I should. So when I finally open up a new entry, my mind goes totally blank and I don't know what to say. I really need to start writing in here again, but is there really anyone who reads this??? I don't know.

I went back and read some of my old posts... interesting. I was really really in love with Matt huh? I still am I guess. I can go days without thinking about him... then some days, I miss him so much it hurts. But I haven't talked to him in about 2 months I guess.. and that's fine. I just miss him sometimes... and I worry about him still.

Life has been fairly good to me lately. After a year of wrecklessness and abadonment... I think I'm settling down. I know I am definitely making some changes in my life. There were things I was doing that I shouldn't - but I was having fun. (don't worry nothing illegal or life-threating or anything.) I finally realized, a few weeks ago, that I need to change. Well actually, I knew the whole time that what I was doing was wrong and that I needed to change - but I didn't have the desire or will to change. I didn't care. I was having fun and no one was gonna stop me. Well, I finally came to my senses and realized where I need to be in my life and especially in my walk with God. And so far, so good. It's still hard...the tempation is so great - but I pray every day for the strength to resist temptation. So I just ask that you pray for me as well... I'd really appreciate it.

The only other thing that is going on is stupid boys. Seriously. I just want a normal guy who wants me for me, and not for what I can give him. Why do all guys just want sex??? UGH. It's so frustrating. Why can't I find a normal guy instead of all these freaks??  I'm tired of it. So if you know of any good men... let me know. Seriously. I've come to the conclusion that I'm gonna meet a guy through friends or online. So friends, hook me up!  

Alright, well I guess I should get back to work. Have a great day!!!

Memorial Day...

Ah, family... you gotta love them!   So I'm sitting here at my parents house... just chilling. I've been here since last night cause the office is closed today... woohoo!!! I love paid holidays! Anyway, the little kids just got here... and it's never a dull moment. The funniest thing they've done so far... my nephew was telling my brother's huge dog to "Go to your room Howie!" for stealing his golf ball!! I love it! It's so hard not to laugh...

Nothing else has been going on really... though I think there should be since it's been like two months or so since I've written anything in here! Work has been going well. We've actually been really busy lately... so that's good. And we'll be SUPER busy in about a week or so. We're actually looking to hire new people because we'll be so busy. Anyone need a part-time job in the evenings?? I could hook you up!

What else? Oh, I moved again. But just like 2 miles from my old place... so not that far. We moved into a townhouse... which is huge. I love it... we have a lot more room now. But other than that... I'm just trying to stay out of trouble... which is harder than you think. Not that I really do anything... cause most of the time I'm sitting at home in my room, but ya know! Anyway... if we haven't talked in awhile, I would love to hear from you!! Hope you're doing well! LOVE YOU!!!

Hey ya'll!! How's it going? Things here are going well. I am now a resident of... "the big 'bus"!!! Woo hoo! I can't believe it! It feels so good to be out on my own again. But it was so weird... when I was moving in, it felt like I was moving back to college again! I love my roommate and my apartment... so when are you gonna come visit me?! haha! You're more than welcome to come over! The best part about moving... it only takes me 15-20 minutes to get to work - YES! I'm loving it!

Speaking of... work is going well. I love it here too! I'm just so happy... finally! I hope I stay happy...

Ok, I don't really have anything else to report... hope you're having a great day! LOVE YA!

It's Official....

Hello Xanga world... thought I'd give a lil update on all things Megan. So as my title says... "It's Official"... here are a few things going on in my life that officially have happened or are confirmed to be happening very soon. So #1, It's official that I am moving!!  Found a roommate who already has an apartment and I'm moving in around March 1 or so.. Woo hoo! I'm very excited to finally get out of my parents house. I'm ready to be on my own again... no more having to sneak out or not telling them where I really am. hehehe

It's official that I'm done with Matt. Though I think I mentioned that in the last post. I still haven't talked to him - but obviously it's over. I'm writing the final email later today. And if he calls me for whatever reason... sometime in the future... that's fine - I'll be his friend, but I can't have any sort of relationship with him. It's done.

I'm still loving my job... seriously. And I can't wait to move so my drive to work is literally cut in half!! How wonderful... Ok, I don't really have much else to say. Keep it real everyone!

9 Lasts:
Last cigarette: Never
Last alcoholic beverage: Hmmm... it's been awhile... maybe Happy Hour at Applebee's?
Last kiss: Adam... last night
Last movie seen in the movie theater? That's been awhile too... maybe going to see Harry Potter w/ Andrew on New Years Eve cause he hadn't seen it yet...
Last phone call: Head
Last cd played: Damien Rice "O"
Last bubble bath: Over a year probably
Last time you cried: Hmmm...  I don't know. Probably a few weeks ago, when I was talking to Megan about Matt
Last person you cried with: Megan

8 Have you evers.
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: No... at least they weren't my best friend before we started dating...
Have you ever skinny dipped: Nope
Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: Ummm... no, not really
Have you ever fallen in love: Yeah... or at least I thought I was in love...
Have you ever lost someone you loved: Yep
Have you ever been depressed: Yes
Have you ever been drunk and threw up: No.. and don't plan on it

7 States you've been to.
1. Maryland
2. New York
3. Michigan
4. Tennessee
5. Florida
6. Utah
7. California

6 Things you've done today.
1. Showered
2. Checked my email
3. Gotten dressed
4. Drove to work
5. Answered the phone
6. Chatted on myspace

5 Favorite things in no order.
1. Friends
2. Music
3. Family
4. Food
5. Pepsi

4 People you can tell anything to.
1. Megan
2. Andrew
3. Heather
4. Sam

3 Wishes.
1. To find a good man....
2. To get along with my new roommate....
3. To have a better 2006 than 2005...

2 Things you want to do before you die.
1. Love... and be loved in return
2. Impact someone's life in a good way...

1 Thing you regret.
1. I don't have any regrets...

I just want a good man... is that too much to ask?!

Hey everyone... how's it going? Things here are going well here. I am now officially the receptionist/administrative assistant at my job. I'm glad I decided to take the job. It's... easy. And I like it! Not because it's easy, but I really just like the job. And hell, more money ain't bad either!! haha!

I'm hoping to move closer to Columbus within a month or so. And now, I actually have two opportunities - which is definitely an answer to prayer. For awhile there I didn't know what I was gonna do because it's killing me driving so far every day... and gas! But I gotta figure out what I'm gonna do and how much money I have. So we'll see... but I'll keep ya updated!

Other than work, and thinking about moving, nothing else is really going on. I'm just trying to move on with my life and enjoy every minute of it. It is finally 100% over with Matt. I know, I know... I've said that before, but this time - I'm done. I can't do it anymore. I have put myself through hell and I can't take being treated like shit anymore. I haven't told him yet though... so pray for me that I will have the strength to do it. I have to do it. He is not worth my time anymore... So I'm finally letting go - for good. Pray for me.

Hmm... what else. Oh and high school crush that I've been sort of hanging out with a little bit, told me the other day that if he still lived closer that he'd date me. How sweet! I don't know if I'm actually interested in him in that way... but it's flattering. Especially because I don't really think I'm his 'type' at all!! But hey it's all good!

Alright well, back to work! I love you all and I hope everything is going well!!